Discovering God and discovering myself (read as my True Self): they are one and the same. We know and accept ourselves in the very same movement in which we're knowing and accepting God; in surrendering to God, we simultaneously accept our best and fullest self. But how do I know God? How do I discover Him? God refuses to be known except by love. He is a Person to be loved, enjoyed, and imitated, which ironically ends up being its own new kind of knowing. This is absolutely central and pivotal. Thus discovering God is equal to loving Him.
We may therefore say that there is only one problem on which all my existence, my peace and my happiness depend: to discover myself in discovering God. If I find Him I will find myself, and if I find my True Self I will find my truest God. Finding God and finding our True Self—which is letting go of our false self—are finally the same thing.
In the eternal scheme of things, we discover that all God wants from you is "you." It's just so humbling, because it always feels like not enough, doesn't it? You think you need to be a little better, a little holier, a little worthier, a little fairer, a little thinner, a little more beautiful, a little more wealthier but not this "actual one" that you are now. You always want to be someone else. You want to be a Mother Teresa or a Deepika Padukone or a Virat Kohli or a Mahatma Gandhi. Even children are asked, "What do you want to become in the future?" They are given the complex that they are not enough, the present time is not good enough.
The closer you get to God, you realize that God only wants "you." Nothing more, nothing less. As Oscar Wilde says, "Be yourself; everyone else is already taken." Each of us is our own beauty, a freely-created, grace-sculpted beauty. Perhaps a tragic beauty: a mix of good and bad, beauty and terror, holiness and horror. But God precisely wants this you, this one—with its complex, confused mix. He loves this "you" in this form. He doesn't want anything else from you, any other "you." Just you. Just this. He loves (accepts) you as you are.
We may therefore say that there is only one problem on which all my existence, my peace and my happiness depend: to discover myself in discovering God. If I find Him I will find myself, and if I find my True Self I will find my truest God. Finding God and finding our True Self—which is letting go of our false self—are finally the same thing.
In the eternal scheme of things, we discover that all God wants from you is "you." It's just so humbling, because it always feels like not enough, doesn't it? You think you need to be a little better, a little holier, a little worthier, a little fairer, a little thinner, a little more beautiful, a little more wealthier but not this "actual one" that you are now. You always want to be someone else. You want to be a Mother Teresa or a Deepika Padukone or a Virat Kohli or a Mahatma Gandhi. Even children are asked, "What do you want to become in the future?" They are given the complex that they are not enough, the present time is not good enough.
The closer you get to God, you realize that God only wants "you." Nothing more, nothing less. As Oscar Wilde says, "Be yourself; everyone else is already taken." Each of us is our own beauty, a freely-created, grace-sculpted beauty. Perhaps a tragic beauty: a mix of good and bad, beauty and terror, holiness and horror. But God precisely wants this you, this one—with its complex, confused mix. He loves this "you" in this form. He doesn't want anything else from you, any other "you." Just you. Just this. He loves (accepts) you as you are.
God does not love you because you are good. God loves you because God is good.
Will you trust in this God of yours who wants nothing else but you? And all of you. If God can receive you, who are you to not receive yourself—with faults and all? To accept that you are accepted, and live likewise.... That's your task today.
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